Friday, December 21, 2012
I think it has been two years since I last blogged.
I never thought I would start blogging again.
I simply needed another platform for me to vent my frustrations.
Have you ever had this feeling? The feeling where you held a person so dear but yet you seem like you are of zero importance to the person. I know, it is very hurtful of me to say this. Why am i wanting reciprocation of my feelings? It shouldn't be this way, I feel so selfish and willful by wanting the feelings we put in to be equal. I know, in life, nothing is fair.
I merely wanted everything to remain the same for good.
I never wanted anything more, but also, I don't want anything less.
This just showed me that my wish made in Bintan was nothing but a fluke.
I was supposed to wait till the day I die to see if the wish came true, but I already know it on the second day after i returned back to singapore. How great.
Perhaps, God just put you in my life to help to me walk through the hardships of my life during that period of time and not to be in my life forever.
Then again, what's forever? No one can ever define that shit.
Alright, enough for now. Till we meet next time.
♥our lips must always be sealed
20:52
Monday, November 22, 2010
で？
そうなんですよ、私はあなたのこと好きです。
けど、それで？
誰も知らないでしょう？
だって、あなたはこの真実も知らないでしょう。
本当に好きだよ。凄い好きで。でも、仕方ないなああ。
いつか、あなたは気づいてくれるんの？
あの時来るまで待ってるから。
でも大事な問題はあなたは私の事を好きなのか？
it has been a rather emotionally tiring week.
even though it is a four-day work week.
challenger mini has opened.
and tmr onwards, full shifts day will end and i will be on afternoon shift.
:D
hope it will be a great day ahead.
i know, i know there are many people who dotes on me.
and i really do appreciate that.
but.
there will always be a BUT somehow.
if only you understand what the BUT is.
♥our lips must always be sealed
01:44
Sunday, November 14, 2010
more than a month since i have blogged huh?
lets see what has happened.
oh i have had chicken pox, tgt with amanda hahas.
staying at home for 2 weeks without stepping out of my house at all.
immediately after that, school starts.
its tep.
by the way, i was attached to challenger mini, which will be open next week.
it has been training, and stocking up of goods for the past few weeks.
aside from school/work,
my emotions are kinda controlling me now.
crying every night seems to be a daily routine now.
there is no one i can go to.
i dont want to disturb my friends who are taking their exams now.
all my other friends has their own problems now.
there is no point adding on to their problems.
i'd rather stay alone then to bother them even more.
more of, mine isnt really a problem.
cos its mainly a one-sided thing which i will never tell the other party.
♥our lips must always be sealed
15:10
Saturday, October 02, 2010
it has been more than a week since i have came back from korea.
and i am missing it even more.
not just me, i guess the rest too!
oh! and some SUPER GOOD NEWS!
this semester my results were just great
i got no C at all!
1 distinction, 3As, 2B+ and 1B(:
&i got into the director's list!
which made me super super super happy!
woots!(:
im not flaunting or anything, cos this is the only place i can say my results out so happily(:
we have worked hard for it i guess!
this week is a freaking broke week.
going out almost every day!
MONDAY- out with pea and vivian to watch GOING THE DISTANCE
TUESDAY- Kbox with jingting and amanda
WEDNESDAY- hair treatment with amanda and shop for belle stuff
THURSDAY- home sweet home
FRIDAY- belle's belated bday celebration with huiqin yingwen jolene pea vivian amanda wilbur and yuting
okay i am going to save this coming week, so that i will be able to go out with
fishball pea and wugui next week((:
嵐の時間です！
嵐の新しいシングル
dear snowのＰＶが出てますよ！
すごく各個いいです！
来月、もう一枚新しいシングルが出てますらしい。
だから、楽しみです！
今、ニノの過去のドラマ見ているんです。
優しい時間というドラマです。
ニノの演技が半端じゃないよ！
♥our lips must always be sealed
23:58
Saturday, September 25, 2010
okay, im back from my korea immersion trip!
its really SO SO SO SO FUN!
im just too lazy to type everything down
thanks AMANDA YUTING HUIQIN BELLE DIRTYSARAH PAMELA YINGWEN WAYNE AND JUSTIN more making the trip so freaking fun
!
thanks loads.
after thanking, my emo section should come in.
are you really that dense?!or are you just leading him on?if it is the latter, i really dont know you well then.本当にあほうなの？好きじゃなかったら、正直彼に言ってよ。だって、彼はあなたのこと好きらしいから。もう一つ、あなたは彼がいるから。お願いから。
♥our lips must always be sealed
00:55
Saturday, September 04, 2010
wow it has been more than a month since i have ever blogged!
not that anyone reads my blog. hahahs.
isn't that better?
i can express how i am really feeling here and not hiding(:
it is exam period now!
four papers next week and i am off to korea for ten days!
woots!
cant wait for it, but i am not prepared for the trip yet.
yes, all because of exams!
i decided to let it go, my feelings.
言わない。
あの人に言わないから。
恥ずかしし、難しし。
ニノ歌様に、あの人のことを 特別にした。
特別の人だから。私にとって。
好き過ぎで、何もできなかった。
だってあの人は 私の事好きじゃないでしょう。
仕方ないなあ。
じゃ、試験を頑張ってて、嵐のこと一生好きで、それで良い。
本当に。
ありがとうなあ。
特別の人に。
♥our lips must always be sealed
17:48
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
have you ever wondered who you really are?
what kind of person are you?
or how real are you?
okay, at least i did.
i really dont know who i am
how do i really feel towards him and the others.
do i like them?
do i really treat them as friends?
are they using me, or is it that i am using them?
i really dont know.
can anyone provide me with the answers?
♥our lips must always be sealed
13:54
