Sunday, May 30, 2010
今 何を怖いの？
自分の中に本当に分からなくて
私の友達と思ってる
そっちは？
友人って 言ってくれて
本当に？
何も あなたに話してもいいの？
分からない！
教えてくれよ。
can i really talk to you about anything?
♥our lips must always be sealed
22:01
Friday, May 28, 2010
i feel that the frustrations in me are piling up like a mountain.
but yet there is nothing i can do.
i dont know if i should talk to anyone about it.
or perhaps, its that i dont know who i can talk to.
is it just that im thinking too much again?or is that person MIA-ing/avoiding me?
♥our lips must always be sealed
23:54
Thursday, May 27, 2010
no matter how much fun im having at that moment.no matter how many people is with me or around me.my heart still feels lonely.its no longer the same.never the same.
♥our lips must always be sealed
00:32
Monday, May 24, 2010
私たち何をしていたの？
何の関係があるの？
何で みんなのシチュエションになっての？
本当にこの気持ちが嫌いだ。
何で そのままで ダメなの？
この世界が何をなるかな。
本当に考えいます。
♥our lips must always be sealed
15:19
im really tired of being the one providing things.
so what,
if im not there, you guys cant do anything?
i am not indispensable btw.
♥our lips must always be sealed
15:19
Thursday, May 20, 2010
watch your tone please.
if you dont give me a sense of respect and in return, i wont.
its just so simple.
you offending me will just lead to me offending you in the end.
im really tired of being the person that will let people to do whatever they want and accept it in my own course.
I AM REALLY NOT NICE.if you think i am just the person whom you can talk in a bad tone with and i will just accept your PMS or whatsoever, you are wrong.
i wont.
i will bite back, when my limits come.
i cant be bothered with maintaining this so-called interpersonal relationship.
just because i need you and you need me in this world, i have to withstand all your nonsensical and immoral behaviour.
please get a hold of yourself.please, stop being the person that i start to dislike, or even start to hate.
♥our lips must always be sealed
21:03
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
finished ICTS quiz today, 20% for this module down!
hahhas
seriously dont like this teacher lor, how i wish SBL can come and teach me again.
going to EFMA ICA1 tmr.
sian ttm
haven study yet OMG
sick this few days.
why do i have to be sick NOW?
during the ICA season.
:S
this few days have been a rather nice ones though.
had celebration for YUTING bday ytd at northpoint swensens
:D
TOMATO!
and lastly, i have became a new BFF of someone(:
♥our lips must always be sealed
22:07
Sunday, May 16, 2010
THE ICAS SEASON IS COMING.
oh no, my knowledge of business finance stopped at lecture one.
GG.
things arent as simple i guess.
我是谁 我是谁 我是谁？
♥our lips must always be sealed
20:35
Saturday, May 15, 2010
i feel like i am acting in a drama!
hahahs only jingting knows what i meant.
i really dont know how i feel.
but i guess i will just wait and see.
off today.
and i slept all the way till 4 plus 5.
but still have to go to school for some yog training tmr.
tired.
all the way from 9am to 3pm.
hope that it wont be boring.
perhaps just like what she said.
its not because of like or dislike.
but just some lack of topic.
hope things turn for the better too.
you! cheer up!
dont be emo like me:D
♥our lips must always be sealed
01:17
Thursday, May 13, 2010
it was just my wishful thinking afterall.it wasnt a scam, nor is it real.there are always more than 2 choices in life.
♥our lips must always be sealed
22:42
no one can help me on this issue but you.
what do you want from me?
can i trust you?
are you being real or is this just a scam?
FYI, if i ever know that all this are nothing but just lies, i wont forgive you.
NEVER.
because you really hurt me.
♥our lips must always be sealed
20:26
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
why must you suddenly not reply msg?
i really hate it when people do that.
okay, at first you are busy, i can understand.
but then, i realised.
you are not.
you are making me crazy.
im hating this me now.
isnt showing others the real me the right thing to do?
did i do the wrong thing?
i thought you would be the one that is able to make me forget my troubles with them.
but am i wrong?
♥our lips must always be sealed
20:32
Sunday, May 09, 2010
finally back from the one day event!
had fun being with my group, making new friends, and being dirty?
perhaps being dirty not that much.
had 2 hours of sleep on friday night.
listened to music and dozed off.
woke up with a heavy head on saturday.
had the pairings of ogl.
im with PEA.
okay, at least someone im familiar with:D
my group was fun!
especially those few guys that kept asking people whether people know that i am a chinese!
hahahhas!
okay thats probably the first time im happy about that fact?
played amazing race.
however there is a heavy rain during the mass games.
we had sharing session instead.
hahahs, with that, i realised galvin is actually a super lame person!
hahahahas.
after the rain, we had wet captain ball.
got wet.
dinner and wash up time for the freshies.
and then rah-rah time.
friendship dance, debrief and off we go!
real tired but still need to chiong tuts and wiki project!:S
♥our lips must always be sealed
15:48
Thursday, May 06, 2010
the academic week for me has ended for me!:D
hahahs.
i love thursdays to the max man!
had human resource and EFMA today.
as usual, my PEM was fun:D
but EFMA lecturer was urgh.
oh my! i feel like crying now, like seriously.
i feel like there is a need to talk to you,
but yet im afraid that if i go and talk to you about stuff like this.
you will repel further.
so what should i do?
somehow i really hope you read my blog.
so you will understand how i really feel even without me saying.
i feel that im contradicting myself with one of my previous post.
about hoping you wont read my blog.
BUT NOW I HOPE YOU DO!
♥our lips must always be sealed
23:51
Monday, May 03, 2010
sometimes i really think i should just heed the advice of AIBA.
when you are too happy or excited about certain things, you tend to push too far.
in the context of being with friends.
i seriously tend to commit this mistake.
so sometimes i really hope someone else, but me, can control this stupid mouth of mine.
is it even possible?
is feeling uncomfortable with friends the first step from drifting?
i feel so.
but yet, im trying my best to feel comfortable with them.
is it even possible to get rid of this uncomfortable feeling?
sigh
had quite an okay day in school today.
somehow, there are many things that i cant tell the others
but just yuting.
because we share certain secrets i guess.
im getting closer to jingting alr.
hahhas, she is a fun girl.
i enjoy telling her and showing her videos about arashi.
how nice(:
she actually laugh with me and showed interest in it:D
彼氏ほしいな。
♥our lips must always be sealed
23:41
Sunday, May 02, 2010
ahhhhhh the weekends is ending soon!
got to go to school tmr again.
tired of it man.
in the past, i used to feel SUPER motivated to go school.
perhaps its because of the classmates.
sigh.
YEAR2 is real busy.
i realised i used the weekends to do the tutorials.
tutorials which i dont even know what the hell i am doing.
how sad.
is this really what i want?
i mean, business.
do i really want to work in the business industry in future?
my interest is in media.
isnt it?
perhaps i could work in the media industry in future too?
but in a business context(:
am i working too hard, as compared to the others?
or is it just that i dont like the feeling of losing?
just like what one of my unknown classmate said
i am kiasu?
perhaps i am.
but who likes losing?!
hahahahhas.
♥our lips must always be sealed
16:38
Saturday, May 01, 2010
currently listening to a song called DESTINATION NOWHERE.
hmm, it makes me wonder, where is the destination we all aim for ultimately.
we are just all working hard in our very means.
but will all these hard work help in where ever we are aiming for?
i told myself i have worked hard for all my friendships.
but they dont really work out in the end.
is it that im lying to myself or is it that, all my friends arent appreciating the hard work?
why is it that after we are being split into the various destinations we are headed for,
things seems to be different?
only when we are in a team for the same destination then we are able to be called friends, if not we cant?
i really dont want to lose my friends just because of the destinations.
or is it just that im thinking too much, AGAIN.
♥our lips must always be sealed
00:13
