smile again 泣きながら　生まれてきた　僕たちはたぶんピンチに強い

2010-11-22T01:44:00.002+08:00

で？
そうなんですよ、私はあなたのこと好きです。
けど、それで？
誰も知らないでしょう？
だって、あなたはこの真実も知らないでしょう。
本当に好きだよ。凄い好きで。でも、仕方ないなああ。
いつか、あなたは気づいてくれるんの？
あの時来るまで待ってるから。
でも大事な問題はあなたは私の事を好きなのか？

it has been a rather emotionally tiring week.
even though it is a four-day work week.
challenger mini has opened.
and tmr onwards, full shifts day will end and i will be on afternoon shift.
:D
hope it will be a great day ahead.

i know, i know there are many people who dotes on me.
and i really do appreciate that.
but.
there will always be a BUT somehow.
if only you understand what the BUT is.

2010-11-14T15:10:00.002+08:00

more than a month since i have blogged huh?
lets see what has happened.

oh i have had chicken pox, tgt with amanda hahas.
staying at home for 2 weeks without stepping out of my house at all.
immediately after that, school starts.
its tep.

by the way, i was attached to challenger mini, which will be open next week.
it has been training, and stocking up of goods for the past few weeks.

aside from school/work,
my emotions are kinda controlling me now.
crying every night seems to be a daily routine now.
there is no one i can go to.
i dont want to disturb my friends who are taking their exams now.
all my other friends has their own problems now.
there is no point adding on to their problems.

i'd rather stay alone then to bother them even more.
more of, mine isnt really a problem.
cos its mainly a one-sided thing which i will never tell the other party.

2010-10-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

it has been more than a week since i have came back from korea.
and i am missing it even more.
not just me, i guess the rest too!

oh! and some SUPER GOOD NEWS!
this semester my results were just great
i got no C at all!
1 distinction, 3As, 2B+ and 1B(:
&i got into the director's list!
which made me super super super happy!
woots!(:

im not flaunting or anything, cos this is the only place i can say my results out so happily(:

we have worked hard for it i guess!

this week is a freaking broke week.
going out almost every day!

MONDAY- out with pea and vivian to watch GOING THE DISTANCE
TUESDAY- Kbox with jingting and amanda
WEDNESDAY- hair treatment with amanda and shop for belle stuff
THURSDAY- home sweet home
FRIDAY- belle's belated bday celebration with huiqin yingwen jolene pea vivian amanda wilbur and yuting

okay i am going to save this coming week, so that i will be able to go out with
fishball pea and wugui next week((:

嵐の時間です！

嵐の新しいシングル　
dear snowのＰＶが出てますよ！
すごく各個いいです！
来月、もう一枚新しいシングルが出てますらしい。
だから、楽しみです！

今、ニノの過去のドラマ見ているんです。
優しい時間というドラマです。
ニノの演技が半端じゃないよ！

2010-09-25T00:55:00.002+08:00

okay, im back from my korea immersion trip!
its really SO SO SO SO FUN!
im just too lazy to type everything down

thanks AMANDA YUTING HUIQIN BELLE DIRTYSARAH PAMELA YINGWEN WAYNE AND JUSTIN more making the trip so freaking fun
!

thanks loads.

after thanking, my emo section should come in.

are you really that dense?!
or are you just leading him on?
if it is the latter, i really dont know you well then.

本当にあほうなの？
好きじゃなかったら、正直彼に言ってよ。
だって、彼はあなたのこと好きらしいから。
もう一つ、あなたは彼がいるから。
お願いから。

2010-09-04T17:48:00.002+08:00

wow it has been more than a month since i have ever blogged!
not that anyone reads my blog. hahahs.
isn't that better?
i can express how i am really feeling here and not hiding(:

it is exam period now!
four papers next week and i am off to korea for ten days!
woots!
cant wait for it, but i am not prepared for the trip yet.
yes, all because of exams!

i decided to let it go, my feelings.
言わない。
あの人に言わないから。
恥ずかしし、難しし。
ニノ歌様に、あの人のことを　特別にした。
特別の人だから。私にとって。
好き過ぎで、何もできなかった。
だってあの人は　私の事好きじゃないでしょう。
仕方ないなあ。
じゃ、試験を頑張ってて、嵐のこと一生好きで、それで良い。
本当に。
ありがとうなあ。
特別の人に。

2010-07-21T13:54:00.001+08:00

have you ever wondered who you really are?
what kind of person are you?
or how real are you?
okay, at least i did.

i really dont know who i am
how do i really feel towards him and the others.
do i like them?
do i really treat them as friends?
are they using me, or is it that i am using them?
i really dont know.

can anyone provide me with the answers?

2010-07-20T23:11:00.001+08:00

i was just trying to make you repel right.
i hope i did succeed.
go away, it will just make things worse if you continue to be close.

am i doing it for our good, or am i just being politically correct and selfish again?
someone answer me please.

2010-07-16T01:37:00.002+08:00

私のことを好きなの？
好きみたい、でも本当に分からないよ。
どうしよう、ハッキリで私にいって。
だって、考えすぎる　体によくない。
知りたいだもん。
知って、その気持ち分かって、それだけ欲しい。

あなたの人生に　私はおもちゃですか。
別の友達と女性いたら、私のこと要らないでしょう。
ジャ、何で何時も私にメールしての。
誤解始めるぞ。
私のことを本当に好きじゃなかったら、これをしないでください。
ありがとう。

2010-07-12T22:34:00.003+08:00

is it a sign for me to give up.
what is the point of holding on to something which you know that it will never be yours.
is this really determination, or just stubborn?

can you please tell me what to do.

好きだよ
今日は本当に気づいた。
あなたの事を本当に大好き。
私の気持ち、絶対にいえない。
だって、言ったら友情がなくなって。
本当に怖いよ。

2010-07-11T17:09:00.000+08:00

本当に意味を分かるかな。
分からなかったら、簡単に言わないで。
違う気持ちを届けますから。

2010-07-10T16:27:00.002+08:00

a question from AMANDA shocked me!
omg, why will she think this way?
what did i do to make her ask me that question.
OMG.

どんな気持ちを持ってるんですか。
教えてくれ。
考えすぎて、体によくないですよ。
お願い。
私のこと好きだったら、教えて。

2010-07-09T00:58:00.002+08:00

projects are piling like nobody's business.
handed in business finance ICA2 on tuesday.
had business law presentation on wednesday.
and now, its time to chiong for marketing ICA2 which is due NEXT MONDAY!

omg, then next thurs it would be EFMA ICA3.
the following week i would be having my jap elec roleplay.
and HRM presentation.
that will mark the end of projects.

its only 2 weeks karen,
im sure you can do it, right?

大好きと言われた。
本当の気持ちですか。
わかんない。
如何しよういいの。
誰が助けて。

2010-07-07T00:01:00.001+08:00

does appearance really matters that much?

2010-07-04T03:51:00.002+08:00

when you get close to someone, you will be exposed to his or her flaws.
that will cause you to change the impression of that person.
however, when you learn to accept their flaws,
everything will remain the same.

sometimes, i have got no idea what i am thinking.
or how i am feeling right now.
im really ignorant of everything.

is this true feelings, will it be reciprocated?
i hope it is and it will.
but yet i doubt so, after what is mentioned just now

どうすればいいの？
教えてくれよ。
本当に好きだけど。
なにもできなくて。
私のことを　すき？嫌い？
本当の気持ちおして　欲しいんだ。
お願い。

2010-06-25T03:04:00.002+08:00

with just a blink of the eyes,
the holidays seems to be ending soon.
i dont want it to end, yet there is nothing i can do.
when school reopens, projects and exams will be haunting me.
LIFE SUCKS, huh?

went for SBM CAMP IMPACT on tues and came back on wednesday.
there arent many campers as expected.
huiqin me simin becks and vivian ng
got into the same group.
our station practically did nothing.
its basically sending them out of school for the amazing race and receiving them back.
so we had like 6 hours free?!

even amanda who is in logs got nothing to do!

then we slacked, slept and stoned.
until rhin sheryl and jolene came back from far east and huiqin here after doc
laughed, joked on many things.

then it was feed back, celeb show by freshies and night walk.
jolene and i stayed in our station for 2 hours talking and listening to music.
then finally campers came, but the interval was so long.
that i fell asleep at some point.

went back, washed up, talked and napped for 10 min.
pea vivian huiqin belle amanda jingting went home early.
then breakfast and wet games.
before wet games we slept for half an hour too(:

ours arent really wet games anyways.
its just captain ball with different balls and CABBAGE.
had hard time picking up the cabbage on the floor):

then stoned at ltc.
laughters again(:

photo video and prize presentation, home sweet home.
slept, but like not enough.
went back to school for blaw today again.

luckily tmr got nothing on(:

2010-06-21T01:08:00.002+08:00

came back from the second stayover-cum-birthday party of the month.
hahahs!
firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!

we had a stayover at her house for the past 2 nights:D
met jingting, belle, huiqin, jolene, yingwen, yuting and vivian at yew tee mrt and cabbed there.
played wii and had steamboat for dinner!
cheese tofu is yumyum!(:

had a walk with LOVE, and the rest after dinner.
went back and its wii again.
apparently, jingting and i planted ourselves on her sofa to sleep on the first night.

hahhas.
woke up at about 10 the next day,
wii and horror movie.
then its her bbq.
(:

stayed over for another night.
woke up at about 1 plus.
hhhaas
only me and jolene woke up actually.
talked for abit.
then amanda sister brought love back
and everyone woke up at 3 plus.

ate maggi and talked for awhile.
home sweet home.

argh, supposed to go out with goodfriend later.
but she need to chiong proj.
so no choice.
projects more important(:

sbm camp impact on tues.
hope it will be fun(:

彼は私の気持ち分かるの？
時々はちょスィートですけど。
だって、絶対私のこと好きになれないでしょう。
綺麗じゃないだから。

2010-06-17T22:15:00.001+08:00

君は私たちの本当の友達だよ。
間違えない！
絶対に　一生友達だよ！

だから考えすぎないで。
私の気持ちを信じて。
絶対に夢を叶うから。

信じることは全て。

2010-06-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

ビビアンのシャレトに　一杯のものきずいたんだ
私たちの関係が　上々に変わるでしょう
こんなものをヤダ
でもなにもできない

あの人たちが　私に　一杯のものを　教えてくれる
だからこそ　私も同じのものを　君たちに教えたいなあ
できるかな

本当に私のことを考えるの？
あの言葉を信じればいいの？
彼女は信じなくっていいと　言いましたけど
信じたいなあ。

神様、教えて。

2010-06-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

it has been a busy week for me.
3 ica assignments to be handed in
NE project, jap lyrics assignment and EFMA ica2.
2 written ica
ICTS and HR.

and it have all ended.
just left with the submission of EFMA.

tired and is in major lack of sleep.
yet im suffering from insomnia.
i guess im just to frustrated with various stuff.
relationship problems, personal choices.
OMG LIFE SUCKS!

何で　話してくれないの？
話したい、でも恥ずかしいから。
会いたい。

2010-06-06T01:25:00.002+08:00

dear my friend.
sometimes i wonder who am i to you.
can i really rely on you.
or am i just an emergency float to you.
give me reassurance please.

2010-06-04T18:49:00.001+08:00

時々考えるけど
真実って　なに？
何を　信じればいいの？

誰の話は本当のことですか？
どんなの道決めればいいの？
誰が教えてくれ。

2010-06-02T22:23:00.006+08:00

ONE MORE WEEK TO HOLIDAYS!

oh my, i really cant wait for holidays to come.
this sem has past so quickly.
although the holidays are mostly for project work discussions.
at least i dont have to have two 8am lesson consequently(:

tired and exhausted are the words to describe myself.

2010-05-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

今　何を怖いの？
自分の中に本当に分からなくて
私の友達と思ってる
そっちは？
友人って　言ってくれて
本当に？

何も　あなたに話してもいいの？
分からない！
教えてくれよ。

can i really talk to you about anything?

2010-05-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

i feel that the frustrations in me are piling up like a mountain.
but yet there is nothing i can do.
i dont know if i should talk to anyone about it.
or perhaps, its that i dont know who i can talk to.

is it just that im thinking too much again?
or is that person MIA-ing/avoiding me?

2010-05-27T00:32:00.002+08:00

no matter how much fun im having at that moment.
no matter how many people is with me or around me.
my heart still feels lonely.
its no longer the same.
never the same.

2010-05-24T15:19:00.003+08:00

私たち何をしていたの？
何の関係があるの？
何で　みんなのシチュエションになっての？

本当にこの気持ちが嫌いだ。
何で　そのままで　ダメなの？
この世界が何をなるかな。

本当に考えいます。

2010-05-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

im really tired of being the one providing things.
so what,
if im not there, you guys cant do anything?

i am not indispensable btw.

2010-05-20T21:03:00.002+08:00

watch your tone please.
if you dont give me a sense of respect and in return, i wont.
its just so simple.
you offending me will just lead to me offending you in the end.

im really tired of being the person that will let people to do whatever they want and accept it in my own course.
I AM REALLY NOT NICE.
if you think i am just the person whom you can talk in a bad tone with and i will just accept your PMS or whatsoever, you are wrong.
i wont.
i will bite back, when my limits come.

i cant be bothered with maintaining this so-called interpersonal relationship.
just because i need you and you need me in this world, i have to withstand all your nonsensical and immoral behaviour.

please get a hold of yourself.
please, stop being the person that i start to dislike, or even start to hate.

2010-05-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

finished ICTS quiz today, 20% for this module down!
hahhas
seriously dont like this teacher lor, how i wish SBL can come and teach me again.

going to EFMA ICA1 tmr.
sian ttm
haven study yet OMG

sick this few days.
why do i have to be sick NOW?
during the ICA season.
:S

this few days have been a rather nice ones though.
had celebration for YUTING bday ytd at northpoint swensens
:D
TOMATO!

and lastly, i have became a new BFF of someone(:

2010-05-16T20:35:00.002+08:00

THE ICAS SEASON IS COMING.
oh no, my knowledge of business finance stopped at lecture one.
GG.

things arent as simple i guess.

我是谁我是谁我是谁？

2010-05-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

i feel like i am acting in a drama!
hahahs only jingting knows what i meant.

i really dont know how i feel.
but i guess i will just wait and see.
off today.
and i slept all the way till 4 plus 5.
but still have to go to school for some yog training tmr.
tired.
all the way from 9am to 3pm.
hope that it wont be boring.

perhaps just like what she said.
its not because of like or dislike.
but just some lack of topic.
hope things turn for the better too.

you! cheer up!
dont be emo like me:D

2010-05-13T22:42:00.001+08:00

it was just my wishful thinking afterall.
it wasnt a scam, nor is it real.
there are always more than 2 choices in life.

2010-05-13T20:26:00.001+08:00

no one can help me on this issue but you.
what do you want from me?
can i trust you?
are you being real or is this just a scam?

FYI, if i ever know that all this are nothing but just lies, i wont forgive you.
NEVER.
because you really hurt me.

2010-05-12T20:32:00.001+08:00

why must you suddenly not reply msg?
i really hate it when people do that.
okay, at first you are busy, i can understand.
but then, i realised.
you are not.

you are making me crazy.

im hating this me now.
isnt showing others the real me the right thing to do?
did i do the wrong thing?
i thought you would be the one that is able to make me forget my troubles with them.
but am i wrong?

2010-05-09T15:48:00.002+08:00

finally back from the one day event!
had fun being with my group, making new friends, and being dirty?
perhaps being dirty not that much.

had 2 hours of sleep on friday night.
listened to music and dozed off.
woke up with a heavy head on saturday.
had the pairings of ogl.
im with PEA.

okay, at least someone im familiar with:D
my group was fun!
especially those few guys that kept asking people whether people know that i am a chinese!
hahahhas!
okay thats probably the first time im happy about that fact?

played amazing race.
however there is a heavy rain during the mass games.
we had sharing session instead.
hahahs, with that, i realised galvin is actually a super lame person!
hahahahas.

after the rain, we had wet captain ball.
got wet.
dinner and wash up time for the freshies.
and then rah-rah time.

friendship dance, debrief and off we go!

real tired but still need to chiong tuts and wiki project!:S

2010-05-06T23:51:00.002+08:00

the academic week for me has ended for me!:D
hahahs.
i love thursdays to the max man!

had human resource and EFMA today.
as usual, my PEM was fun:D
but EFMA lecturer was urgh.

oh my! i feel like crying now, like seriously.
i feel like there is a need to talk to you,
but yet im afraid that if i go and talk to you about stuff like this.
you will repel further.
so what should i do?

somehow i really hope you read my blog.
so you will understand how i really feel even without me saying.

i feel that im contradicting myself with one of my previous post.
about hoping you wont read my blog.
BUT NOW I HOPE YOU DO!

2010-05-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really think i should just heed the advice of AIBA.
when you are too happy or excited about certain things, you tend to push too far.
in the context of being with friends.

i seriously tend to commit this mistake.
so sometimes i really hope someone else, but me, can control this stupid mouth of mine.
is it even possible?

is feeling uncomfortable with friends the first step from drifting?
i feel so.
but yet, im trying my best to feel comfortable with them.
is it even possible to get rid of this uncomfortable feeling?
sigh

had quite an okay day in school today.
somehow, there are many things that i cant tell the others
but just yuting.
because we share certain secrets i guess.
im getting closer to jingting alr.
hahhas, she is a fun girl.
i enjoy telling her and showing her videos about arashi.
how nice(:
she actually laugh with me and showed interest in it:D

彼氏ほしいな。

2010-05-02T16:38:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhh the weekends is ending soon!
got to go to school tmr again.
tired of it man.
in the past, i used to feel SUPER motivated to go school.
perhaps its because of the classmates.

sigh.
YEAR2 is real busy.
i realised i used the weekends to do the tutorials.
tutorials which i dont even know what the hell i am doing.
how sad.

is this really what i want?
i mean, business.
do i really want to work in the business industry in future?
my interest is in media.
isnt it?
perhaps i could work in the media industry in future too?
but in a business context(:

am i working too hard, as compared to the others?
or is it just that i dont like the feeling of losing?
just like what one of my unknown classmate said
i am kiasu?
perhaps i am.
but who likes losing?!
hahahahhas.

2010-05-01T00:13:00.003+08:00

currently listening to a song called DESTINATION NOWHERE.
hmm, it makes me wonder, where is the destination we all aim for ultimately.

we are just all working hard in our very means.
but will all these hard work help in where ever we are aiming for?

i told myself i have worked hard for all my friendships.
but they dont really work out in the end.
is it that im lying to myself or is it that, all my friends arent appreciating the hard work?

why is it that after we are being split into the various destinations we are headed for,
things seems to be different?
only when we are in a team for the same destination then we are able to be called friends, if not we cant?
i really dont want to lose my friends just because of the destinations.
or is it just that im thinking too much, AGAIN.

2010-04-29T23:55:00.002+08:00

finally its the end of the week, for school.
but tomorrow need to go funan to service netbook ALL ALONE!
SIANED TTM!

had first project meeting of the sem today.
and once again, i got mistaken to be a non-chinese?!

samuel: -talks in english-cum-chinese and then turn to me- you understand chinese right?
me: I AM A CHINESE!

why does this happens again?!
ahhhhhhh!

then went to amk hub to watch MONGA with amanda and guanglong the BRINJAL!
quite a nice movie though.

ytd had SU general meeting.
pea and me suddenly became group leaders.
hahahhas.
for galvin's group, group 5.

shall rest and wake up early to go funan tmr.
though i really dont wanna go!

2010-04-25T00:59:00.002+08:00

sometimes, blog should really be kept secret.
in that case, you can blog whatever you are feeling
even though it may offend some people in certain ways.
now i really have something i want to blog out,
but that person reads and i dont want any misunderstanding to occur.

what should i do?

2010-04-24T19:57:00.002+08:00

changed my blogskin,
like again?!
hahhahas.

i find my previous blogskin too ARASHIC.
hence, the new change.

im really lazy to do any of the tutorials.
though i did one last night.
but i still cant adapt to the school mode.
im still in the holiday mood i guess.

everything seems different without the same people in class.
i dont know any of the new classmates.
though we would kinda say HI if we see each other.
but its JUST DIFFERENT.

i miss BH 09/10.
I MISS VIVIAN PEA JOLENE SHIMIN MINYI AND ALL THE OTHERS IN THE SAME CLASS.
but i guess there is nothing i can do but to adapt to the new class right?

君たちいないのクラス　違って見えた。

2010-04-23T16:01:00.002+08:00

it has been a week since the school started.
year 2.
new class, with people i dont know.

4 days week is a great thing!
at least i can rest on fridays
hahahs.

helped our in club crawl for the past 2 days.
didnt really help out.
had lessons, so jolene did most of the work.
sorry!

after this event i realised im really non-existent sometimes.
no one knows me and im like someone whom popped out of nowhere.

obsessing with idols is a much fun thing to do.
MONSTER! 怪物くん!

2010-04-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

LIFE SUCKS

2010-04-11T23:34:00.002+08:00

how cool can things get.
i was out of the shower and happen to press play on itunes.
blog hopping at the same time.
5x10 started playing and what i saw on people's blog were things recapping the past year.

really made me feel sad yet happy.
what a ironic feeling.
the feelings friends had for another were all described in the song.
though we didnt be together for 10 years, but i will always rmb this friendship.

ずっと　ずっと　心にあるんだ
だからこそ　伝えてみたいるんだ
ありがとう
これからも
ありがとう！

2010-04-11T01:35:00.001+08:00

do you know how is it like when you waited for a certain thing,
and you kept looking forward to the next day just for it,
somehow after it came, you will just feel empty all of a sudden?

thats exactly how i am feeling now.

2010-04-10T17:12:00.002+08:00

went out with yuting on thurs
went cine to watch my rainy days.
its still not as good as sky of love.
hahhas.
i guess im just bias.
talked about many things.
no doubt, some made me emo.
is it my limit, or just that im always frustrated with that same person?
can anyone tell me?
cos i dont know it myself.
:S
im looking forward to the new semester, yet im not.
hmmr, shant think too much.
its orientation soon.
partnering jolene, hope can take jingyang or yeekeat's class
hahahhahs.

on a happier note,
ARASHI ANNIVERSARY TOUR 5X10 DVD IS OUT~!
watched it alr,
but should i buy?
its near to 100 bucks!
urghhhhhhhh.

2010-04-05T23:17:00.007+08:00

SPECIAL POST FOR VIVIAM KAM WUGUI!

PS: i realised i take very little pics with you:x

2010-04-05T00:29:00.012+08:00

as i look back to my poly year one.
i would see how much people changes, including me of course.
people does change.
but it depends on how much and whether good or bad.

so long as they change for a better, then its fine.
i just hope to remain the current relationship.
maintain the friendship
and do not wish for it to break, just because we all split to different classes.

vivian and i

me and fishball

pea vivian me and jolene

missing vivian

jolene and me

BH (not all though)

(ex-soulmate and GIRLFRIEND)

I WILL MISS BH'09/10!!!!

2010-04-04T01:10:00.005+08:00

back from the busy week.
i guess i will just stay at home the whole week.
not doing anything.

went to chalet on tues.
met the rest at pasir ris and then headed to chalet.
jolene me minyi amanda and yuting stayed in to clean the chalet
while the rest went to buy things.
stoned awhile.
and went ehub for subway.

played card games with yuting guanglong jolene and amanda.
had fun though.
then movie!
WHEN IN ROME
nice movie!
funny!!!

amanda went off and we had our DRINK WATER GAME.
urgh.

guanglong minyi me yingwen talked till about 4plus?
then yingwen went to sleep and we continue talking.
until 6 plus.
woke up at 9 plus?
:S

breakfast time.
shimin came to join us.
bought some stuff and back to chalet!
card games again.
murderer!!!!
hahahs! guanglong became joker sia!
SAVE!!!

bbq~
the rest came and joined us!
huiqin belle scarlett zhiyin kristle famira shakilah.
after they went back it was cleaning again!

bathed and card games again!
the rest slept while minyi yuting me walked around the pool and talked.
then headed to macs for breakfast.
just the 3 of us.
hahhahas.

slept through till 12.
then the rest went for breakfast while we stayed in.
and then they headed for wild wild wet while we stayed in again.
vivian came back while i was asleep.
then helped out in setting up bbq.
didnt really help.
vivian did it.
all we did was get our hands black.

left early cos good fri was the next day.

ytd went for mass.
then went to yenyen's granny's wake.
she and her twin look alike!!!
i want a sis like that too.
(:

2010-03-29T00:58:00.001+08:00

aches everywhere!
shoulder aches!
my limbs arent like mine anymore!
stiff everywhere!
omg! hate it man!

suddenly feel that friends are great!
they wont be with you 24/7
but when you need them,
they will definitely be there for arent they?
they are MARVELOUS!

2010-03-28T17:37:00.001+08:00

to make up for leaving camp early.
i researched games last night.
hope that they work and help the chalet to be more enjoyable.

i seriously think my body is having problems already.

2010-03-27T20:49:00.003+08:00

i should just stop going for any camps!
seriously.
i would always end up leaving halfway.
i myself, dont know the reason.
why is it that i would always have headache after the first or second day!
why i cant just endure?
i hate myself for being like that.
i suck.
i feel bad.

2010-03-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

i just watched a video about bullying in school.
it really made me think of the incident that happened to me.
im glad that i survived thru that and got to where i am now.

the video talk about a girl who got bullied in school and tried committing suicides several times.
but she decided to stop after listening to arashi songs.
there is this part of the song saying "誰か誰を　支えて生きているんだ"
which actually means people will support one another in life.
this sentence made her work hard and survive through the bully she is in currently.

what is bully?
seriously?
what can those people gain?
if you think about it seriously, those people are plain childish.

2010-03-23T10:24:00.002+08:00

i guess its my sense of anxiety to check the results that woke me up.
woke up naturally at 10 (i normally wake up at 4)
took my netbook and checked my results.
the results i saw was actually the cummulated one, i was a bit disappointed when i saw that.
but after calculating my results this sem alone, i was quite okay with my result.

how did everyone do i wonder? hope they did fine.
my eyelids are heavy now.
back to my dreamland.

2010-03-23T01:14:00.002+08:00

MAXIMUM ANXIETY!
in less than 12 hours i will know the results of my hard work.
im really scared that the results are worse than what i expected.
the results, decide my motivation for future.
if i really do badly, perhaps i wont work this hard in future?
like, i wont really do my tutorials anymore.
it sound wrong, but this is really how i feel now.

putting all these anxiety aside
i finally finish kindaichi shounen no jikenbo 3
the one matsujun acted in.
he is so cool!
he would make a good bf, i mean kindaichi.
so cute and blur at the same time.
but yet have IQ of 180!!
ahhhhhhh!
if i got to know arashi 9 years ago, i would definitely like matsujun.
hahhas too bad, now i like aiba(:

okay, shall go watch yamada taro monogatari.
SHO AND NINO(:

2010-03-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

何だよ。
君は　彼氏と　友達のこと忘れるになるの？
ジャ、彼氏と　ずっと一緒にね？
だって　友達って　君とっては何もないから。

2010-03-19T03:37:00.002+08:00

had a great day with classmates on tuesday (:
first met them at ps and had hong kong cafe, yumyum.
then headed towards minds cafe.
played many many games, had a great time.
had dinner with pea vivian huiqin and guanglong at astons.
then home sweet home.

on wednesday, met sharon at cine and finally got to watch NODAME!
yatta!
its nice nice!
same kind of atmosphere as usual.
chiaki would hit nodame like he usually does
hahhas
looking forward to the part 2!
after that, walked around and met naomi for dinner.
had pastamania~
and i bought a new bag!
im really an indecisive person i guess.

hahas, and thurs.
met katherine and sharon for dinner.
jaslyn cmi cos feeling unwell.
REST WELL(:
katherine tempted me with all her tackey fandom in japan.
i want to go there too!
omg!
i want to see aiba-chan and kame real life!!!!

really going out every day.
cant save any money like that.
must restrict myself next week.

and tmr there is ogl meeting.
sianed.

hahhas!
just watched gakkou e ikou MAX.
the ones with arashi in it!
omg those cross dressed guys are so pretty.
no wonder nino is in love with them too.
:D

okay, time to sleep.
if not my body clock wont just be screwed but
SCREWED TTM!

2010-03-16T03:53:00.002+08:00

and finally i went to kbox with jingyang and yeekeat last week(:
last tuesday went with them to nyp to get info about enrollment.
then headed to kbox at amk(:
there are jap songs! woohoo!

then on wednesday, met yongmei and xinyi for dinner.
CHEER UP XINYI!

HAHHAS
then on friday, met jolene and went to watch percy jackson.
like finally!
(sorry vivian, i really thought you watched alr!XD)
and i had this sms convo with SOMEONE!

person A: watching movie ey! i sitting behind you siol
me: where are you?
person A: behind. two rows behind. can see me?!
me: liar:x i sitting second last row.

that made me laugh in the cinema! hahhas
percy jackson was a nice movie(:
gonna get the book soon!

and on saturday!
JAM HSIAO CONCERT!
MR ROCK!
hahahs he was cute! as usual!
danced which he usually dont!
:D
reached home around 1 plus?
had supper with yuting vivian and her bro(:

and today!
i went to watch KAIJI with vivian pea eugene and their friend(:
hahhas jap movie!
i love jap movie!
hmmm, perhaps i should say
I LOVE JAP!:D

okay, off to sleep.
if not i cant wake up for tmr class gathering(:

2010-03-07T18:32:00.002+08:00

初めから　好きだった。
この場所で　待った　君と

人は人　自分は自分
ただ一つの言葉でいい
なんて言わない方がいい
頑張れ　ほら似会ってるよ

自分に嘘は吐かないで
両手　両手　両手で　希望を
ぎゅっと　ぎゅっと　握って
願いが　なると　信じて
行くのさ

2010-03-07T00:41:00.002+08:00

i guess i need to get myself out of my house!
i need a job!
if not my body clock would be screwed like hell knows what!
urghhhh.
sleeping time: approx 5 am
wake up time: approx 4 pm

how cool could it be?!

hahhas! im so bored at home that i actually tried writing stories.
make us of my imagination with ARASHI
!
HAHHAHHAS!
*feels dumb*

cant wait to go out next week.
with jolene, then with jingyang and yeekeat!
KBOX here i come!

i want to go KBOX with poly mates too though(:

2010-03-05T00:06:00.002+08:00

たとえば　もしこの夜　僕がキミを失ったとしても
忘れないよ　僕がキミを愛しているから

短いキスを　そっと　交わすと月明かりの中に
柔らかく感じる　たびこぼれる愛所を
笑い声とか　悲しい顔も　たくさん見て来たけど
初めて見るのすがったは　僕を戸惑わせた
鍵かげて　そっと　心の中に　ありがとうさえも　
君の心に　届けてなくて

果てなく通ずく道の中に
キミは何を思うの
忘れないで　その心のそばにそっといさせて

悔しい気持ち　闇に隠して　ふざけていた　あの頃
退屈な大人になる　予定だったけど
鍵かけた心　そっとあけて
ありがとうと　言う言葉　キミに今届くかな

果てなく通ずく道の中に　キミは何を思うの
忘れないで　その心のそばに　そっといさせて

キミとの日々　そっと　思い返しては
一人じゃないこと　キミが僕に教えてくれた

キミが苦しい時は　誰より見方に　なると決めた
忘れないで　僕はキミを愛して

たとえば　もし　この夜
僕がキミを失った　としても
忘れないよ　僕はキミを　愛しているから
忘れないで　僕はキミを　愛しているから

2010-03-03T15:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FISHBALL!
its too bad to fall sick on this day.
it makes it seem like im lying when im not.
people seem to be angry for something that i did not do.
even if i go when im sick, i wont enjoy.
i will just bring the atmosphere down.

why?
why is this happening.
maybe i should just isolate myself.

2010-03-02T17:23:00.002+08:00

OMG! I CANT HIDE MY EXCITEMENT!
ARASHI ANNIVERSARY 5X10 CONCERT DVD IS COMING OUT IN APRIL(:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
IM SO GONNA GET IT!

but still have to wait for the hong kong version.
confirm take damn long to come out.
sian-ed

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2010-02-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

fangirl-ing is the only way to get all my troubles out i guess.
its the only thing that wont hurt me.
those guys far in Japan whom i will never meet in my whole life.
supporting them with whatever i can, is the best i can do.
i have to thank them for giving me something to do and a little happiness that i was given.
ありがとうね

went to huiqin house and amanda house on friday(:
first went to huiqin house for steamboat.
met minyi shimin and huiqin at mrt
headed to her house.
then played mj with them.
later on huiqin went to fetch belle they all.
played with her sis instead.
hahhahs
finally learnt how to play(:

steamboat!
then headed to amanda house.
omg! the bus ride there was TIRING!
standing till my leg was numb!

finally reached her house.
played cards and watched tv.
and some retardness of me for being pissed when they did nothing to me!
OKAY I WAS DUMB!
*embarrassed*

shared a room with evelyn shimin and amanda.
hahhas. had fun disturbing shimin and evelyn:x
didnt really sleep.
on bed at around 5 plus?
and woke up at 8 plus, went to the living room continue sleeping
then belle came to wake me up brought me into the room she was sleeping
hahhas talked to them awhile.
and sleep again
cabbed home and then to bai nian.

sehhed.
slept 16 hours through last night.
finally its freedom!
can get all arashi news into my mind!
yatta!
love this time man!
no projects tutorials and exams in my mind!(:

back to ARASHI!
TROUBLEMAKER AND 揺らせ、今を(:

2010-02-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!
WOOHOO! HOLIDAYS HERE I COME!(:

its really tiring to study non-stop
but what can i do, my occupation now is being a STUDENT):

but now im done with it!
super happy!
looking forward to so many many things!
went vivian house today, poker mahjong and photos.
AND ORANGE GREEN!

then heading to huiqin house for steamboat tmr.
then amanda house for stayover and bbq
oohs!
and then class chalet!

i kinda miss sec four classmates now!
we should have a gathering soon(: (:
jdramas jmovies concerts here i come!

JAM HSIAO!
OMG!!(:

2010-02-21T00:40:00.002+08:00

ONE DOWN! THREE MORE TO GO!

next i will be having my econs paper!
oh no!
im really damned it screwed for it!
cos i haven even started!
besides the writing of notes!

and i will be left with non-theory papers!
STATS! A big OH NO!
DONT UNDERSTAND!):

motivations!
will be able to watch
1) Nodame Cantabile
2) Summer Wars
3) Liar Game Final
4) Kaiji

shall start on econs now(:

2010-02-13T01:00:00.003+08:00

finally the last ica of the sem have ended.
and now what is coming would be the EXAMS!
omg! i haven even started studying!
as in real real study.
all i have doned are the notes.

serious lack of time.
and also, why must CNY come now?!
sianed.
reunion dinner tmr
to be exact its tonight.

何で　何時も　私に　仲間たちの関係　壊せるみたい心算のことの話をするんの？
何の心算があるんですか？
こんなの君は　大嫌いだよ！
性格が悪いですよ！

あの人たちより　君は最ヤクだ！

2010-02-10T01:15:00.002+08:00

何で　私は　何もしたくないの？
訳を教えてくれないの？
本当に　知りたいな！

自分の心の中を探してた、
でも何も見つけない。
如何して？

何で　今でも　私のテンシオンこんな　ダオンかな？
知らなかった):

2010-02-10T00:34:00.001+08:00

right now i got a new obsession
YAMATO NADESHIKO SHICHI HENGE!
OMG!
KAME IS SO HOT!
TEGOSHI TOO!
UCHI TOO!
hahahhas.

yeah i know, i shouldnt be obsessed over this now.
but one ep per week(:
it motivates me to study too!

yippee!
doned with pom notes!
ECONS!
here i come to conquer you!!(:

2010-02-08T00:28:00.001+08:00

you are just too fake.
sometimes i wonder if you treat all your friends this way.
should i even call them your friends?

2010-02-07T01:53:00.002+08:00

all the projects for this sem have ended.
ended well?
hahahas i dont know.

all i know is that, i have put in efforts for my ICAs.
and have gotten not too bad results.
especially for business software(:

thus, i should put in more effort for my exams.
to not let my previous efforts down.

i wonder why people would say that my life revolves round studying!
seriously!
im taking that statement damn effed it seriously.
cos im NOT!
it really gets on my nerves when people proclaim something about me when im not!
so STOP IT!

MY WORLD DONT REVOLVES AROUND STUDYING!
i showed you that im not happy with that statement and you continue.

i just feel that its my study, i should put in the minimal effort.
and learn new things.
understand?

just wished my cousin happy birthday.
how amazing i just gone passed my 17th birthday in less than half a year ago
and here he is going through he 18th birthday.
hahhas!
he is considered my childhood mate i guess??
played, sang and done all sorts of things.

i think its a phase when people grow up.
we will all drift all of a sudden
and lose contact eventually.

its all the same.

2010-02-04T12:55:00.001+08:00

currently waiting for my macro tutorial to start:S

in less than 3 hours my last presentation of the sem is gonna end!
yoohoo!
i wonder why do i always fall sick during presentation times.
it sucks ttm!
my voice is like different now, nose keep running!
sian-ed!

shall start on exams revision already.

2010-02-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

today shall be one of the days where i go to bed early!
hahaahs.
just doned my stats tutorial.
its really tedious:S

i dont know why, many things are getting on my nerves today.
sorry for showing my temper at you.
feeling irritated for very very very small things.
maybe thats the reason i decided to sleep early.

meeting shimin jolene and vivian for breakfast tmr(:

2010-01-31T02:40:00.002+08:00

i wonder if its the high-ness i got in the day, that caused me to be so down and sian-ed now.
hmmmrs.

went to civic centre to do EWS proj.
im the earliest, apparently.
waited for around half an hour,
finally shaqif came.
then another half an hour, shimin came.

met jolene's group.
belle, brendan and jourdan.
went up to lib to disturbed them during the proj sessions.
vivian came after that though.

after that, went for dinner with jolene, vivian, belle, huiqin and shimin.
jap food is yummy!
hahahhas
shimin cant wait to go there for lunch on wed!

i really enjoy the time, when im alone, and listen to songs.
it makes me happy really.
cant let go

2010-01-31T00:44:00.002+08:00

百年先も　愛を誓うよ
君は　僕のすべてさ
愛している　ただあいしてる
同じ　明日約束しよう
世界中に　ただ一人だけ　
僕は　君を選んだ　
君と　いれば　どんな　未来も　ずっと　輝いているから

信じることが　すべて

2010-01-29T00:30:00.002+08:00

finally doned with macro presentation today.
she isnt that bad in FAQ, not as bad as i expected.
but i just cant connect my thoughts properly:S

okay, its time to worry about excel ica tmr.
sianed.
tried to study in school just now, absorbed some stuff thought by yw.
im just too lazy to study, as long as i pass and dont get some urghh group members tmr(:

maybe should sleep early tonight,
serious lack of sleep.

何度も　何度も　何度でも
今の気持ち　大好きだよ
何も　考えない！
ちょ嬉しい
何時までも　このままで　いい！(:

2010-01-28T01:54:00.002+08:00

finally its the 28th January!!
in less than 12 hours time, im gonna finish my macro presentation!
finally its over!
and im only left with one more presentation next thurs!
get over with projects!!
cant wait!
omg!

went to watch hachiko with pearlyn vivian and shimin today
then went back to school.
didnt really do much
compiled macro and printed them
had dinner with shimin and huiqin.

tmr will be a tiring day i guess.
after macro presentation
it will be time to chiong excel.
all within a day!
sianed.

im currently addicted to arashi's typhoon generation and everything(:
simply to nice to resist.

2010-01-26T02:13:00.002+08:00

macro project due in 2 days time
GG-ed.
i dont understand why am i so stressed over it,
while others so carefree about it.

my msn seriously got prob.
cant send files and sometimes when people talk to me, i dont receive:S

one thing to be happy about though
i finally finished AAA+ con after like dont know how long?!
hahhas!
nice nice(:
AIBAKA!

things are officially back to normal!
happy for it though(:

JOLENE NOT GOING TO SCHOOL TMR!
I WONT GET TO MEET HER FOR 2DAYS!
WILL I MISS HER??:O

2010-01-24T03:13:00.002+08:00

会いたくて　会いたくて
何であの時　あの人のこと　好きですか？
やっぱり　違うでしょう？
付き合えないのこと　よかった。
ホントに。

この曲は　私を　イモに変わるですよ。
けど　何より　大好きから。

それ、ジャ

2010-01-23T00:45:00.002+08:00

two more weeks and all the projects are down!
im really looking forward to it,
partly because i prefer doing work individually than group ones.
but soon after that, exams will come!
on CNY! sian-ed.

had my poa ica2 today.
quite okay, to me at least.
i just hope to score better for poa, as compared to last sem.
and to not lose to you.
seriously.
please dont do badly as well, i also want you to do well.

after poa, did feedback survey walked jolene to mrt with yuting and amanda.
then walked back to school to slack.
had an interesting convo with them.
stop attacking each other!
hahahahas!

and then dinner with XINYI AND YONGMEI!
it have been ages since i last met them!
together i mean.
xinyi is still as loud, yongmei is still as cranky!
i really missed them loads.
loads ttm.

we were talking about memories in amk mac.
memories of mugging for Os in amk mac, amk lib and bishan.
my memories will stay forever.
they are something that will never leave you always stay by your side.
i am really fortunate to have such happy memories with you guys!
you guys rocks!

we should have a class gathering soon!
fandom fandom!
i cant resist the temptation of fandom!
but yet i have to prepare for my projects and exams!
urgh!

2010-01-20T14:01:00.001+08:00

i want to talk to you, but i dont know how to.

2010-01-20T00:11:00.001+08:00

ありがとう　ありがとう
忘れたいな！
一緒に　行かない？
行こう！

2010-01-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

i chose to not let you affect me.
only when i chose this, then i could be happier.
all i want is to get over it, and aim ahead.
i came to realised that being emo about everything under the sun is pathetic.

hate my past self man.

now, all i can focus on is all the projects
and then, exams.
i just hope to get into the the specialisation i want.
and the elective i want.

何で　聞いての？
私ね　話したくない
お前の空気　が　変わられるよ
これは　やだですよ。
あなた　の笑顔が　見せてくれる？
見たいなあ！

2010-01-14T00:59:00.003+08:00

finally finished my part for POM and macro tutorial for tmr.
exhausted today.
i guess i have been slacking too much with my arashi vids for the past few weeks.

somehow when the night falls.
i would be able to feel the loneliness.
urge of crying will just come.
will i be able to fight them back.
i will win the battle.

本当に　キミと　話さない。
何が　できるの？
キミはね　絶対に　私の良い友達じゃない。
キミと　一緒に　宿題したとき　大嫌い。
もういい。
二人ぎっりの時間　をいたくないから。

2010-01-12T13:38:00.004+08:00

what a way to start the day.
had pom lecture at 8 when i woke up at 730pm.
how rush can it be.
never liked it.
cabbed to school, obviously.

more than half the lecture i was actually reading arashi fanfic with my ipod.
nice fanfic man!
sharon just told me that 最後の約束 subbed version coming soon(:
yippee.
this made me realised that most of the time, im happy only when chatting about fangirl stuff.
the only time where i wont think about other things.

i just dont want history to repeat.
hence, im not doing anything

2010-01-10T02:29:00.001+08:00

what are dreams?
what colour will our tomorrow be?
what is our ultimate aim in live?
doing so much- having fun, having to experience sadness, anxiety and all kinds of emotions, is that life?

i really wonder.
this is something that i learnt from THE QUIZ SHOW 2

2010-01-09T21:27:00.001+08:00

何で　何時までも　キミが　私の言葉にいる　と　思ってるんの？
止めてください
だって　キミね　そんな大事じゃない！

2010-01-09T19:49:00.003+08:00

finally finished poa tutorial 8, just.
so apparently, im left with stats tutorial only.
which is a good thing, or not.
projects are coming just like that, but in about 3 weeks, all will be over(:
shall look forward to then.
and continue with my aiba fandom when chionging for exams.

jiejie just called to tell us that she treating us to crabby feast tmr.
or more of her bf is going to treat.
yumyum.

off to 相葉雅紀 wonderland(:
行きましょう！

2010-01-08T21:26:00.002+08:00

maybe its time for me to start working hard for exams.
since i think i wont really get high marks for proj with all coming at one go:S
i really dont want to have low marks this sem.
yeah, im a perfectionist, some sort.

何時までも　あの人のすべて　分からない　でしょう？
これは　答え。
何時までも　変わらないの真実。

2010-01-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

やパリ　キミと　話すは無理ですよ。
ダメですから
私に　聞いてけど　何でブログ　日本語で　書いての。
答えは　キミ見えないから。
分かる？
この　シチュワイシオン　やだですよ。
助けてくれるの？

2010-01-07T22:51:00.002+08:00

today is open house, so no need to go school(:
slept till 3 today.
finally had enough sleep.

this week dont seems like normal school hour to me though
since we dont have some lessons due to open house.
only had stats tut and lec, and damn macro tut.
there is only one think im happy about the tut.
it is the getting back of macro ica1.
perhaps it did motivate me to do better for my projects and exam.
though the teachers sucks!
she is so irritating!!!

but still i scored 75% for it(:

2010-01-06T15:52:00.004+08:00

なんで私のこと何時までも　見てるの？
教えてくれるの？
何を考えますか？

キミ　何で　何時までも　イモなの？
何時も　インソクル　このままで　よかったの？
本当に　少しに　嫌いですよ。
止めてください！

他の人のシンパチ　欲しいの？
いらないよ　それは。
考えてください
タク、やだですよ。

2010-01-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU GIRLFRIEND!!
special post for you, you see(:

finally one project down!
stats presentation today, hmm ytd to be precise.
hahhas, amanda wasnt here though):
so we had a 3 person presentation i think i stammered cos there is a mistake.
dumb me.

after presentation, stoned awhile and then to yishun with yuting to watch alvin and the chipmunks.
after so long finally got to watch it.
omg! i wanna watch the vampire assistant.
yuting saw me looking up when the word vampire was mentioned in the trailer.
:S

then homed, had a quite long journey ride, compared to normal days.
slept abit, think about some stuff.
):

anyways, girlfriend!
我们没有很奇怪/特别的关系。

2010-01-05T01:31:00.001+08:00

putting up a strong front is tough i swear.

2010-01-04T17:12:00.003+08:00

finally i have decided to type in english again(:
went to many of my friends' blog and seen many of their new year resolutions.
i personally think that some of the bad times for them in 2009 may be caused by me.
no point crying over spilt milk, deshou?
so, i will just make the rest of the time when im with them happy.
and not to cause unhappiness in them!
let's be happy together!
(:

and for the last few months in the same class tgt
lets enjoy!
thank you people.
for helping me to grow up in 2009,
especially in september!
thanks!(:

and to all the new friends that i have made this year,
BIG THANK YOU!
JOLENE, VIVIAN, PEARLYN, SHIMIN, HUIQIN, AMANDA, ISABELLE.
THANKS(:
I REALLY LEARNT ALOT FROM YOU GUYS!
ESPECIALLY VIVIAN KAME WUGUI!
(:

ps: people, please tag:)

2010-01-04T01:02:00.001+08:00

だって　さっぱり分からないもん！
自分の気持ち　本当に分からない。
泣きたいの？笑えたいの？

分からない。
君　分かる？

2010-01-02T18:24:00.002+08:00

何をすればいいですか？
誰も　教えてくれないか？
本当に　知りたい！

私ね　楽しくない、悲しくない。
それより　寂しくない。
自分も分からない。
本当の仲間は　どこ？
本当の気持ちは　誰に　教えてくれるか？

タク、何も　知りたくない！

本当の仲間たち　探している。
お前は　私の本当の友達なのか？

2010-01-02T00:10:00.002+08:00

カワイイ！相葉ちゃん本当にカワイイですよ！
大好き！
だって　山ピもカワイイ！
ジャニースのみんな　大好き！
やパリ　私のアイドルは　なかったら　私は　生きられないね。
それ　ジャ!(:

2010-01-01T01:56:00.003+08:00

its 2010 already.
time really flies huh.
it seems like yesterday where i just got into st nicks secondary
and just got into 3&4grace.
and then collect O level results and got into NYP.
and now, im like going to finish my year one in NYP in about a few months?

its time to aim for higher things.
i wont say that this year have been a bad one, nor it is a exact good one.
at least i got to meet new people, new friends to be exact.
some whom i used to be able to open my heart to.
some whom i still can open my heart to.
some whom i think i would be able to open my heart to in future(:
thanks for everything people.
the enjoyable times.
the unhappy times, for me to grow up.

NEW YEAR
1) hope to get good grades for my sem 2, so that i can get into the specialisation i want(: hopefully, i can get at least 2As, cos i remember my bet with someone, i must beat her!
postive competition.

2) to meet news friends, like always. and not screw everything up, as usual.

3) have better relationship with my current friends(:

4) to be able to manage my time and money well(:

5) go to JE concerts! NEWS ARASHI KAT-TUN! (though not really posible)

6) cant list them all out though
:x

ps: im being jealous of people who can go to JE countdown con!):

smile again 泣きながら 生まれてきた 僕たちはたぶんピンチに強い

smile again 泣きながら　生まれてきた　僕たちはたぶんピンチに強い